Let's Talk: Morning 9:43am

September 28 at 9:43am

I am feeling off-balanced right now. My sleeping schedule has been off the past few days, I've been breaking out like I'm back in high school, and unable to get out of bed at my usual time. When I look at some of the PhD memes, I can relate even though I try to resist them. Before committing to this journey, I told myself that it would be, feel, and look different than my Master's. So far, I've kept that promise to myself. However, the past two weeks have been scattered and now, I feel like I need to lay on the grass, look up at the sky and trees, and just process everything before I can gently move on. I plan to do that this weekend for myself. I am also learning how to ask for positive needs, like, "One thing that would help me feel supported is..." with my advisors and mentors. 

One of my beloved cats, Glaze also unexpectedly and quietly passed away yesterday. He found a small nook beneath the staircase right next to mine. Did you know that cats leave their original spots and their owner's side to pass? I'm glad to know he chose a nearby place where he knew I'd find him. Thomas helped me dig a hole in the garden to bury the little fella. I couldn't bear looking at him as a whole, so saw his paws and sweet little face before placing him in the ground. I picked some flowers to put on top and paid tribute to his short time on earth. He brought me and the neighbors a lot of joy and energy. We planted two papaya trees after we covered him up.

If you know me, you know that I am faint-hearted. I am a highly sensitive person and an empath. It took a lot out of me to view death and experience it. Also, I had work and meetings all day and couldn't tend to him until after I finished everything. I felt guilty. 

Talk soon, friends. And give a lot of love.



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